I like hoping.

Rom 15:13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.

Times like these make me want to drive out to nowhere and listen to the wind. A place where silence is a deafening scream yet soothes the spirit. A place where I can look above and drown in the depths of the stars. And I would contemplate the vast glory of my God as time is frozen by the slumbering landscape. Then remain long enough to catch the sunrise over the crisp morning fog.

It’s a time where I wish to slow the earth and take in its beauty.

Pause.

And praise Him.

It’s been hard to keep doubt and worry of of my mind. I’ve been struggling with it for a while and have manage to get through it so far. But I’ve had enough.

This life that I live isn’t the main picture. In this book I’m reading called “Crazy Love” the author talks about how we play a small 2/5th of second in a movie about God. This world has been formed long before my time here. And God has been doing wonderous miracles for eternity. Then why should I tell God I need a break, or that I can’t talk to him because I’m busy with my own problems right now? There isn’t a reason. This life I live is a mist. It dissappears as quickly as the fog from my mouth on a cold morning. The important thing is how am I going to live for God today? How will I glorify him in what I do today? For his mercy and love is greater than anything I can imagine and I am so undeserving of it. But he’s given us a new life and purpose far greater than the problems we face in our daily lives.

I choose to serve Him.